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Saturday Soliloquy: 26

I killed
26 people
on Wednesday

I didn’t
pull the trigger
physically, but I
killed them
all the

For fifteen years,
my people have
used one
to justify

some war
I thought
“Not my

spread from
one country to
another to yet
another, I thought,
“I guess that’s just
how it is”


For fifteen years,
I never thought to question
my leaders: “How are
me and mine served by our
bombing one then two
then seven countries?
How am I served
by our killing
people and
their homes,
lives, and
in ways
that could
only fan
of hate?

explain it to me
like I’m a five-year-old”

My silent assent
enabled them, and they
have milked it for
all they

My president
has sold $115 billion
in weapons to Saudi Arabia
alone*; it, in turn, has used
those weapons to kill
civilians, over and
over and over

(so many killed,
the Red Cross
is donating

By looking
the other way,
I said, “Yes,
I approve”

And those
I’d helped elect,
they just kept
for money
run for
their lives
from our weapons

when I saw pictures
of children starving in
Yemen because of our–
no, my–weapons, I wept,
for I am starving them

And when
I saw that 71 senators
permitted another billion-dollar
weapon sale to Saudi Arabia
the very same day those
26 innocents were killed
by our business partner,
I wanted to scream

Today, I will kill
even more people,
but take some scant
solace in knowing
I will not be complicit
any longer

I will shout at
those I’ve elected
that I will not support
murder, not vote for it,
not stand for it,
will rise up
against it


I can’t stop
any trigger from
being pulled today
or tomorrow, or the day
after, I. will. speak. in hopes
that my fellow Americans
hear that politicians who
fear losing their seats
will listen well to
an overwhelming
chorus of voices
saying, “You
no longer
my quiet
to murder
(26, 260, 2,600,
or 26,000)
for your or

* By all rights,
we should have
been fighting against
Saudi Arabia; instead,
we have bombed the house
while leaving
the bathroom

** Go to hell stricken
parts of Yemen,
General Dynamics.
May your munitions
fail and end up striking
you where you sleep

Note also
that President Obama
yesterday vetoed a bill that would
enable 9/11’s victims to sue Saudi Arabia;
it’s too important a business partner
big a munitions buyer to
risk losing it over silly
things like
the law or

  1. Paul
    September 24, 2016 at 7:31 am

    Impressive. Congratulations, many never see this clearly. You are insightful.

    • September 24, 2016 at 8:17 am

      Thanks, Paul. I’m glad you commented. A lot of people skip over negative posts because it harshes their mellow, so that I’m trying to be careful to balance uplifting posts with calls to action (in this case, speaking that U.S. politicians must listen) in hopes these grimmer posts will be seen instead of skated past. The way we change grim truths is by first acknowledging them, which can be hard in this world of diluted truths.

      I’ve had a few conversations recently where people told me they don’t really follow foreign policy because it’s not as important as domestic policy. I was there only three months ago, so that I feel compelled to encourage others understand that how we cast our votes is not only important but life or death to many, many people. Of course, people struggling to stay afloat must focus on staying afloat; for others, though, I hope more will see how our local votes have devastating global ramifications … and be inspired to work for change.

      (I’ll be volunteering soon, too. ♡)

      • Paul
        September 25, 2016 at 12:43 am

        Thanks for responding Deborah. If you confronted a politician with this, as undeniable as it is for we all are a part of each other, she/he would have a plethora of excuses ranging from having a “partner” in the Middle East where military bases could be established to supporting oil shipping nations to developing the military industrial complex and strengthening the economy.All of those are true – provided money and military are the controlling concerns. If you refuse to believe that and instead see human life as more important than economy or military might, then the answers are very different – more like your comments,

        Ha! I was watching a debate between a congresswoman and an economist some time ago. They were disagreeing violently over Asian imports and tariffs (the C-woman for jobs kept in America and the economist pushing the higher standard of living with the lower cost imports). The congresswoman literally hammered her desk and shouted: “WE HAVE TO DECIDE IF WE ARE A COUNTRY OR A MARKETPLACE!!” I cracked up laughing as I changed the channel – Lady that decision was made a long time ago = you are a marketplace.

        And so all decisions are made with the criteria of the economy primary. Not the best interests of people – either American or foreign.

  2. September 24, 2016 at 12:19 pm

    It is true on this side of the world as well.
    And our silence IS consent. And support.
    Which makes my head and heart hurts.

  3. eabbatangelo
    September 25, 2016 at 7:33 am

    If more people thought this way (and shared) the world would be a much better place.

  4. September 25, 2016 at 3:05 pm

    Hm… you haven’t “harshed my mellow”, as you mentioned to Paul, as much as you have a LOT (I repeat a LOT!) of highly emotional things that you so eloquently stated that it’s near impossible to “comment on them” without writing a short novel….so I’ll simply say, “I see you and I so totally get where you’re coming from”…..Namaste, my friend…. ❤

  5. Strays Welcome Interfaith Ministries
    September 26, 2016 at 5:38 am

    I read this over coffee and checked all the sources you cited. I keep asking myself, “How is this even possible? How can we justify this sort of military intervention, this brazen funding of violence, how, how?” And then I see exactly how. General Dynamics donates millions to senators and representatives (Democrat and Republican, no matter). And said senators and congresspeople vote as instructed. I’m horrified by this process. Horrified. Meanwhile, we spin further and further into a maelstrom of unjust foreign involvement, and the merry go round of death continues unchecked.

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