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On deefiness

My computer desk shattered out of the blue this morning.


My computer, Sancho the Second, briefly dangled inches above masses of shattered safety glass.

Because I’ve been doing lots of relaxation exercises recently, I simply said, “Huh. Darn,” and got to cleaning.

I’ve spent much of the day since tidying and organizing, including placing my happily-still-functional Sancho on the filing cabinet currently serving as my makeshift desk.

As my husband walked out the door moments ago, he gazed at Sancho and said, “This is the Deefy I married, making do with random stuff!”

I smiled, feeling myself that much-missed deefiness.


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  1. April 24, 2016 at 4:24 pm

    Don’t ever change, Deborah.
    I’m begging you.

    • April 24, 2016 at 4:50 pm

      Thank you so much for these kind words. I hope I change enough to adapt to changed circumstance, while somehow finding my way back to this sense of deefiness–of writing novels on a milk crate “desk” in Japan ’cause it was all I could afford, and worked–that I didn’t even realize was missing, until Anthony made that comment. (Also, whoa, there, Germanic sentence!)

      • April 24, 2016 at 10:12 pm

        🙂 didn’t even register the Germanic sentence until you mentioned it, but yes, you’re right 🙂 Have you read Mark Twain’s essays about learning German?

  2. N.
    April 24, 2016 at 4:33 pm

    Those relaxation exercises are definitely paying off if you managed to have such a toned-down reaction to such a disaster 😂 Good for you!

    • April 24, 2016 at 4:51 pm

      They really are paying off! I noticed small signs earlier in the week, but this was the biggest sign yet. (A month ago, the outcome would’ve been very, very different!)

  3. Paul
    April 24, 2016 at 6:47 pm

    Ahhh, very mellow and deefy.

  4. April 24, 2016 at 10:07 pm

    My computer recently died and I thought I lost the bookmaking file, and all my hard work on my daughters wedding photo book. Learning windows 10 was daunting, but I managed, and luckily I didn’t lose the file. Work has continued and I am way overdue but near completion. I rolled with it as best as I could. That kind of change is so so unbelievably stressful for me. My motto has been lately to try and roll with what life throws at me. I guess I am getting better at it, but sometimes I don’t feel like I am. Kudos to you for rolling with it. 🙂

  5. April 24, 2016 at 10:21 pm

    🙂 🙂 🙂 🙂
    Did something (even something very small) fall onto your desk? The glass is pre-stressed so that when it shatters it turns into a million square-ish pieces instead of long shards. That makes it quite a lot less dangerous when it breaks, but a bit more susceptible to sudden pressure. Also, sometimes the pre-stressing process doesn’t go as perfectly as it should..
    If you have brainspace for it, you could write to the desk-company and tell them, it might be one of a whole batch of duffs..

    Seems like whatever you’re doing is working – keep regaining your deefiness 🙂

  6. April 25, 2016 at 7:57 am

    Deefy, me thinks this is lovely. How blessed we are that the small things, even such teeny pieces, can reveal the bigger picture and biggest love.💜

  7. April 25, 2016 at 8:20 pm

    Wow. I do not think I would have taken in quite so well as you did. My desk is a very sturdy antique metal desk – the brand name Invincible – about says it all. If my desk goes, it is sure to take someone down with it.

  8. April 26, 2016 at 4:39 am

    Pass some of that Deefy to me please, I am begging you! ❤

    Glad you are relaxed and in a great head space. Keep going.

  9. April 26, 2016 at 6:41 am

    I think it’s great that your relaxation exercises have given you new paths in your brain and you didn’t totally freak over it! What a great way to be able to deal with a situation 🙂

  10. April 26, 2016 at 7:23 am

    Deefy? I don’t know this name for you, but I like any name that shows a person has some spunk in the face of trouble. It looks like we work on the same computer, btw. Coraline, or Cora for short, says “hi” to Sancho the Second.

  11. April 26, 2016 at 8:16 am

    Props to you for not lossing it! I would’ve freaked out and then after my twenty minute melt down, started cleaning emotionally.

  12. April 28, 2016 at 11:22 am

    Good on you! I probably would have flipped out. Keep up those relaxation exercises – they’re clearly working.

  13. April 29, 2016 at 12:01 pm

    Yikes! You handled that well, pretty sure I would’ve cycled through every curse I know!

  14. April 30, 2016 at 12:55 pm

    Yeesh!! Glad Sancho survived!

    • April 30, 2016 at 1:03 pm

      Me, too! On an unrelated note, WP just showed me as not following you, though that was not through any act of my own. What the heck, WordPress?!

      • April 30, 2016 at 1:05 pm

        Yeah, I don’t know why WP does that sometimes either!

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