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Holding these moments close

I go back to work next week. I’ve written a 5,000-word post about this in my mind over the last couple of weeks, but can’t bring myself to type it yet.

I’ve survived this shift once before. I know I’ll do so again, being brave as I hold my eldest son’s words close to heart. But for now, it’s moments like theseย I hold close.

reading with j

littler j snuggles

  1. nicciattfield
    June 18, 2014 at 6:38 am

    LIl J. I feel sad when I read this post. thinking of you.

    • June 18, 2014 at 8:55 am

      Thank you. Some moments, I’m excited to return to the challenges of work. Others, there is little else but sadness.

  2. June 18, 2014 at 6:45 am

    Love the sleeping photograph! Such a beautiful snapshot in time. ๐Ÿ™‚ Cate

    • June 18, 2014 at 8:56 am

      I love, love, love those moments he falls asleep on my chest! I try to spend a few minutes soaking it in, although I inevitably eventually turn to reading blogs and the like. Even that’s lovelier than just plain reading. ๐Ÿ™‚

  3. Charlie
    June 18, 2014 at 7:02 am

    I miss those moments of when it was just the boy and I…snuggling during the day…those are definitely precious times. You should definitely get those 5,000 words down…even if it’s kept private. You’ll be glad you did.

    • June 18, 2014 at 8:58 am

      I read your comment right after dropping off Li’l D and thought about it as I drove. It might be that I end up writing only 1,000 of those 5,000 words, but in this case . . . getting it down now, capturing this experience before it’s over, is more important than doing so perfectly. I’ll just have to figure out where to find the time these next few days. I can and will find it, sometime when both the boys are sleeping. ๐Ÿ™‚

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  5. June 18, 2014 at 2:01 pm

    But every day you’ll get to return home to your boys. That’s quite a blessing.

    • June 23, 2014 at 10:09 am

      It is. It absolutely is, but it won’t stop me from wishing for a little more time. For now, I am reminding myself this is a step to other things … not for an eternity. ๐Ÿ™‚

  6. June 18, 2014 at 7:11 pm

    I’ve been thinking hard about the possibility of going back to work myself, and find myself composing blogs in my head about all the conflicting things I’m feeling. Love these photos.

    • June 23, 2014 at 10:11 am

      I am so glad to see someone else writing about thinking of these things in terms of posts! This is how I organize my thoughts, and is so, so helpful.

      I am really glad to be returning to work (as is my husband, who knows how much I love to work outside the home and get cranky without that outlet), but it’s not an unambiguous gladness.

  7. June 19, 2014 at 8:35 am

    All the moments in time, captured in photos and words, you will be so happy to have them. These are beautiful. Write them down, whether you keep them private, share them only partly or all of them you will be happy to have them.

    I love these pics. Beautiful, both of you.

    • June 23, 2014 at 10:14 am

      I am so, so glad to have them. My phone just rebooted, reset, and totaled my text messages and photos, but even so, I have Instagram and the many pictures I emailed. Each is a treasure, all the more so for having lost the others. Each captures a precious moment that lives on in my heart, in the kind of memory that runs deeper than words and images.

  8. June 19, 2014 at 3:33 pm

    Thinking of you and sending love + support as you transition.

    • June 23, 2014 at 10:16 am

      Thank you. ♥ I can’t tell you how much your words here and elsewhere have eased my heart. I don’t know how to explain it, but the world feels both gentler and stronger to me knowing you are in it.

  9. June 21, 2014 at 9:25 am

    So precious!

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