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My (um, uh, well) Magically Vanishing Blogs

WordPress tells me I’ve written about 150 posts. Y’all know I have written more than 150 posts. So what gives?

About that . . .

A few months back, I got a hankering to review old posts and mark some “private.” Things that go out on the internet are never really private, it’s true, but I liked the idea of refining the blog’s outward face for newcomers.

Still only a few skips up Inebriation Alley

Who needs the story behind pics like this, anyway?

I began reviewing my posts one by one, occasionally marking some “private.” I made it through about twenty before getting bored and antsy. Bored and antsy: a dread combination under which no important decision should ever be made. Ever. So, naturally, I set down my laptop and walked away.

Except not really.

I know! I thought. I’ll just move all my posts to the trash, and move them out as time permits!

Great idea, that one. No possible drawbacks, like–for example–being too slow to review them and discovering they have all been permanently deleted.

Nope, no drawbacks whatsoever.

“Six hands for lifting,” the post in which I described learning of my mom’s mental illness and how I found hope in the wake of those terrible times? Gone. “My bully pulpit,” talking about torturous bullying my sister endured while bullies’ parents looked on? Also gone. “An abridged history of my hate,” describing my journey from furious hatred to love? Deleted! Hundreds of other posts? Seceded.

Fortunately, other popular blogs such as “‘Our baby is going to experience racism someday’” and “One month bald: The walls outside & the light within” survived my two-minute whimsy test. My Freshly Pressed posts? Accounted for. Still others endure they were featured on other bloggers’ sites: “Photographs of the Heart,” “A godmother’s enduring lessons in love,” and “Mother, Child, Mother.”

I have copies of every single one of my posts, so this unfortunate diminishing of my blog doesn’t represent a loss of each blog’s journey of discovery. What it does represent is a loss of every single beautiful and/or hilarious comment you left on those posts, the breadcrumb trails leading me to other bloggers I’ve come to love.

To that I say a heartfelt, D’OH! And to you I say, let this be a lesson! If you’re feeling bored and antsy all at once, do go for a walk. Do wash dishes. Do read a book. Do make ridiculous animated GIFs.

dancin' all the way to orygun!

On second thoughts . . .

Do not, I repeat, do not attempt level-headed conversation about your spouse’s faults. Do not tell your mother-in-law her cooking sucks, just because the timing seems perfect. Do not feed trolls, online or off. And for the love of pete, don’t move all your blogs to the trash bin as a “temporary” measure.

Even if you can’t trust my personal project management skills, you can trust me on this.

  1. June 18, 2013 at 9:42 pm

    How reassuring to learn that other people cannot be trusted while bored. Bored and antsy is downright dangerous in my world.

  2. June 19, 2013 at 2:12 am

    I remember “Six Hands for Lifting” very well! My heart went WHOMP when I read that it vanished without a trace … though I do feel somewhat better knowing you’ve got a copy!

    • June 19, 2013 at 8:56 pm

      That was the big post I felt pangs about “losing” from here, Jacqueline!The good news is that archive.org means copies of all those posts have been archived. A friend did a little hunting and found that even the comments are archived. *cheers* They’re not as accessible, and they’re not encapsulated in a single neat chronology here, but they’re still out there. Which is lovely. 🙂

  3. June 19, 2013 at 2:21 am

    Love the animated GIF’s. I agree with your advice. It is good to read back past post. They remind us of how we were then, the changes we went through, the friends we meet, the ups and downs we had to face. Thanks for sharing this. Wishing you and your family all the best.

    • June 19, 2013 at 9:00 pm

      I love having this chronology of how much I’ve changed, and also being able to look back at what hasn’t changed. Sometimes I wonder if I’d remember more if I wrote less, but I’m glad to have the journey documented all the same.

  4. June 19, 2013 at 3:59 am

    Ah! I had no idea this could happen? What the? Sorry you lost all those comments! At first I thought you were going to say you’d lost the ENTIRE copies of the post. (gasp) I’d die.

    • June 19, 2013 at 9:04 pm

      There’s this site archive.org that crawls pages and archives their content as of given days. I hated it back when I had my old webpage in the late 90s, but now I’m very, very, very glad for it. But for archives.org, I’d be weeping instead of shaking my head at myself for sure!

      One heartstopping moment was when I realized I’d deleted the letter I wrote my friends the day after my mom died. I really did lose the email replies to that, but thanks to one dear friend, I have a copy of that letter . . . and I am so glad for that.

  5. June 19, 2013 at 5:03 am

    Oh Deb, sorry. Bored and antsy, terrible combination. Does it help at all to know you are not alone in acting out during this terrible combination of emotional enui? It likely does not. Does it help to know all of us love you anyway? Hopefully this helps, all of us love you anyway are glad you are here to teach us, lift us up and share with us. Although I can’t speak for everyone only myself, I suspect I mirror many.

    I am sorry you lost so many of your wonderful comments, glad you have them saved your posts elsewhere (mine are all in Word first).

    • June 19, 2013 at 9:05 pm

      It helps immensely. I’ve said it before but I’ll say it again: Even just seeing your name makes everything feel better here. Truth.

  6. June 19, 2013 at 5:56 am

    Oh, Deb, this so sad! Believe me, I will heed your advice! And thank God you have, at least, some version of the original text! Still, what a huge loss.

    Sorry to have been away for so long. Sara and I have been in the process of selling our US home, getting married, and moving to Ecuador. Finally, we are beginning to settle in our new home, and I hope that will mean a return to writing for me.

    Take care, my friend.


    • June 19, 2013 at 9:06 pm

      KATHY! So good to see you! I was away for a while myself, mostly, but I’m reacclimating to things in the blogosphere. It’s good to see you here, and I look forward to seeing more about your (re?)new home in Ecuador.

  7. June 19, 2013 at 7:37 am

    This is great advice, Deb. I don’t have copies of my posts, except the first drafts in Word. How would one copy them with comments, etc?

    • June 19, 2013 at 9:14 pm

      I did save a couple of my posts as Word docs with the comments, nervous about losing them. If you don’t mind long, slow-loading docs, that’s one way to go. Other than that, you should be able to go to archive.org and find most/all of your posts archived with comments. It’s not the same as having them centralized here, but much better than imagining them vanishing altogether!

  8. June 19, 2013 at 8:52 am

    I’ve often thought about doing exactly waht you did – well … not trash them but sort through the one fromt eh beginning when I could barely put a well written sentence together. Thanks for letting me know that it could be a very traumatic moment.
    Who says you can’t learn from blogging?

    • June 19, 2013 at 9:20 pm

      Man, it is amazing and kinda nuts how much I’ve learned from blogging! It’s made me a much, much better writer, for one. Turns out insight into how different people think and process things is invaluable for blogging, writing and communicating in the world at large. 😉

  9. June 19, 2013 at 2:30 pm

    Oh, snap! If I ever have time to get bored, I will remember this advice. 😉

  10. June 19, 2013 at 3:42 pm

    Sorry to hear of your posts’ untimely demise. on a happier note- I love the gif. xoxo

    • June 19, 2013 at 9:24 pm

      I’m preferring to think of it as a relocation, thanks to archive.org, and also an opportunity to share silly animated GIFs. So glad for the friend who sent me those blasts from the past! 😀

  11. jottlings
    June 19, 2013 at 8:09 pm

    You are lovely

  12. June 19, 2013 at 9:42 pm

    I am seriously dangerous when I am bored…I usually just change everything on my blog around, or I do housework 🙂

  13. June 20, 2013 at 11:48 am

    I sometimes have considered this with my own blog, I know that I have some posts that are more hardcore, and I feel the need to hide them. Being anonymous doesn’t help either because I need to make sure I make very little mention of who I am in certain ways, and never mention where I live and keep those details down to a bare minimum. I’ve always enjoyed every post you’ve written, so definitely don’t hide them! But, I can totally relate that in a moment you can totally hide/delete posts, I try not to go too far back with my posts since I might be tempted to hide/delete a lot of them. 🙂

  14. June 20, 2013 at 6:13 pm

    I’m so sorry to hear this happened to you! To me, a blog is a personal work of art… the order in which the stories are posted, the conversations that occur in the comments section… I can sympathize with the sense of loss you feel.

  15. June 21, 2013 at 9:54 am

    I trust you implicitly, my friend.

  16. June 21, 2013 at 10:08 pm

    Ahhhh! That explains it! All my links to your awesome posts became broken a while back, and I tried to re-establish them, but they were gone… From the ashes, rises a new beginning, eh? Love you, sis! ❤

  17. Val
    June 22, 2013 at 2:46 pm

    I love, LOVE that .gif! 🙂 As for your missing comments via the missing posts… some of them might be in Google’s cache (providing your blog’s not set to ‘no search engines’ or whatever the setting is currently called). Google caches all sorts of things, you’d be surprised.

  18. June 22, 2013 at 6:28 pm

    Have you tried the way back machine?

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