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Twelve times forever

“I’m too straight, mama. I’m too straight.”

My son assuredly meant something by this, but it’s doubtful he meant what it sounded like to me.

I couldn’t help but laugh, but I couldn’t stop thinking about his words, either. And when we drove away from a bookstore with a new Cat in the Hat book in our possession, I found myself imagining a Seuss-style conversation with his older self.

Li’l D, just so’s you know, I’ll love you . . .

twelve times forever

Mommy, mommy, you love me, right?
I love you, silly, bigger than the sun is bright!

Would you love me if I were a girl?
It’s your heart I love, not the parts that show to the world.

What if I were sick? Would you love me then?
Aye, for it’s not a temperature that makes a good friend!

But if I were gay, would you turn me away?
As long as you love, you’ll make my every day.

What If I grow up and become a judge?
I wouldn’t wish law upon you, but my love wouldn’t budge!

Does this mean that you’ll love me forever and ever?
Forever’s too short; I’ll love you twelve times forever.
(And then let’s just add one more little forever.)

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ยฉ 2012 Deborah Bryan. All rights reserved.
Duplication in whole or substantial portion is explicitly forbidden.

  1. Vina Kent
    February 27, 2012 at 7:09 pm

    So brilliant!!!! Mind if I reblog this?

  2. February 27, 2012 at 7:10 pm


  3. February 27, 2012 at 7:41 pm

    Love this. I must remember how fast it all goes.

    • February 28, 2012 at 5:35 am

      Thank you; yesterday I had a bit of my own reminder at the office when someone said, “Can you believe it’s already the end of February?” Put to me that baldly, I realized (as I do periodically) time feels like it’s accelerated daily since I became a mom.

  4. February 27, 2012 at 8:05 pm

    Really sweet. Your son is adorable

    • February 28, 2012 at 5:38 am

      Thank you! He’s somewhat bigger now, but even more adorable to me (not that the me of then would’ve thought that possible).

  5. February 27, 2012 at 8:10 pm

    Dear Deborah,

    We’re miles apart and the gulf in years between us might seem formidable, but you and I write for our children, that they may still have us down the road and will always know that they were loved. (So we’re not so far apart after all:)




    • February 28, 2012 at 5:42 am

      that they may still have us down the road and will always know that they were loved
      These beautiful words gave me goosebumps. This. What you’ve said here. I wish we could be here for them forever physically, but leaving these trails of crumbs so that they always know our love for them is a both a joy and a gift.

      Thank you, Doug. I love your words. (Seems your heart ain’t half bad, either!;)

  6. February 27, 2012 at 8:46 pm

    Oh…I love this. Love. This! Lucky boy and lucky momma. โ™ฅโ™ฅ

    • February 28, 2012 at 5:48 am

      Thank you, Kasey! I debated giving myself longer than Li’l D’s episode of Dora last night, but when I read and reread it, I decided it said everything I wanted it to, even if I tend to run along the more verbose end of the spectrum!

  7. February 28, 2012 at 1:15 am

    Truly beautiful. Thank you.

  8. February 28, 2012 at 4:34 am

    Ahhh…the heart of Dr. Seuss and Deb when they get together. Loved this!

    • February 28, 2012 at 5:51 am

      Thank you, Georgette! I’ve been feeling a bit down the last few days (with a helping of rageyness last night), but while I wrote this with Li’l D on my lap, I was whisked away. That should be an excellent reminder of where to keep my head today! ♥

  9. February 28, 2012 at 4:36 am

    Deb! I think this is so beyond lovely. It’s the perfect love letter to your son! So when you’re done editing the Daughter series… How ’bout you write some children’s stories. I just love this. Putting it on my FB wall after today!

    • February 28, 2012 at 5:53 am

      When I was in college, I dreamed of becoming a children’s book author. I didn’t take a single step toward actually doing it, but I loved how they spoke to me even as an adult as well as the idea of ever inspiring kids and other adults to feel the same wonder and love.

      In light of this, your comment is such an awesome gift. And also something really amazing to think about as an actual, honest possibility. Thanks for that, and for tweeting it already. Loves.

  10. February 28, 2012 at 5:24 am

    This is so, so powerful. I love the notion that forever is too short!

    • February 28, 2012 at 5:54 am

      The me who’s not writing the poem chuckles at the idea, but while I was writing this it seemed absolutely perfect. :p

  11. February 28, 2012 at 7:09 am

    Most of us can’t help wanting what we want for our children. But they get what they get, and our love doesn’t waiver through the getting.

    Thanks for a lovely, uplifting start to my day!

    • February 28, 2012 at 10:15 pm

      It’s so exciting to imagine what’s to come. There are so many configurations that would be absolutely wonderful, after the rocky years have passed. ๐Ÿ™‚

      Thank you. ♥

  12. February 28, 2012 at 7:16 am

    That’s adorable, and very successfully Seussian! You should save it and show him someday.

    • February 28, 2012 at 10:16 pm

      I hope to save it for him, but I’d better move this out of the realm of hoping and into the real of “actually printing it up and putting it in his baby book.” I really, really want him to know. ๐Ÿ˜€

  13. February 28, 2012 at 7:24 am

    Wonderful! โค

  14. February 28, 2012 at 7:36 am

    Well written! I think I’ll read it to my kids! ๐Ÿ™‚

  15. February 28, 2012 at 8:31 am

    Lovely, I use tell my kids “I love you Pie times infinity” they laugh at me now for this

    • February 28, 2012 at 10:19 pm

      Hee. Now that Li’l D’s wiping off my kisses and saying, “ew, gross!” I can’t help but wonder for what other things he’ll be chagrined with me in the future!

  16. February 28, 2012 at 11:21 am

    What great words! I love this….

    • February 28, 2012 at 10:21 pm

      Thank you! I was pretty grumpy and sad in turn yesterday, but for the moments I wrote and reflected upon this, it was all joy.

  17. February 28, 2012 at 11:36 am

    These are forever words. Keep them till he’s 30 and then 12 times more ๐Ÿ™‚

    • February 28, 2012 at 10:22 pm

      Bwahaha! I’ll do just that, and I’ll keep multiple back-ups lest he get any bright ideas about “losing” them in the futrure!

  18. February 28, 2012 at 4:01 pm

    So sweet! You need to keep this for him when he is older ๐Ÿ™‚ I love it!

  19. February 28, 2012 at 4:20 pm

    This is so incredibly sweet Deb.

  20. February 28, 2012 at 4:50 pm

    Awwww. So sweet! You would like Mama Do You Love Me? by Barbara Joosse

    • February 28, 2012 at 10:28 pm

      I’m going to be buying that book in the very near future, thanks to you! The title alone would sell me, but the title and it’s recommender? Done deal!

  21. February 28, 2012 at 6:16 pm

    Your first comment was “Brilliant!”
    I have to agree!

  22. February 29, 2012 at 6:18 am

    What a treasure for your son to hold onto ~ forever! A true legacy that he will pass on to his own children! Extremely well put!

    • March 7, 2012 at 4:31 am

      I still haven’t managed to print this up, but I think that’s because it hasn’t gotten onto my to-do list–which stops now! I want to make sure a copy of this is always within his reach. ♥

  23. February 29, 2012 at 9:27 pm

    You have the best conversations with Lil’D. Smart! ๐Ÿ˜‰

    • March 7, 2012 at 4:32 am

      It’s easy to imagine them while he’s a toddler. I wonder what it’ll be like a few more years down the road when we’re actually having the real ones. I hope it’s none too far from this, but I know better than to expect that as he moves along the toddler to teen spectrum. ๐Ÿ˜‰

  24. March 1, 2012 at 7:11 am

    Wonderful. Uplifting.

  25. March 2, 2012 at 5:29 pm

    So happy to have read this today!! What wonderfully sweet words and an adorable picture!

    • March 7, 2012 at 4:34 am

      So happy to be reading words from you, even if this is the first comment I’ve (so far) replied to! YEAH! Thinking of you often, Sprinkles. ♥

  26. March 2, 2012 at 8:50 pm

    Love this, 12 times forever and ever:) Love. โค

  27. March 7, 2012 at 1:40 am

    In the wee hours of this Wednesday,
    I love this post more than I can say!

  28. March 7, 2012 at 4:59 pm

    That first line just cracked me up! And “Twelves times forever” – what a beautiful piece! ๐Ÿ™‚ Love it!

    • March 11, 2012 at 9:06 am

      Thank you! ♥

      He kept saying that line so seriously, making it all the harder for me not to bust up laughing! I tried to limit it to a few quiet chuckles so he wouldn’t feel he wasn’t being taken seriously. ๐Ÿ˜‰

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